I had dinner last night with KQ and she asked me why I hadn’t been blogging. I told her the truth. I haven’t told yall the truth because, as usual, it’s a little embarrassing. But now I’m gonna tell you…not because I’ve gotten over the embarrassment of it, but because today I’m feeling bold. I’ll change my mind tomorrow…I’m bi-polar like that.
Without me realizing it and without me meaning for it to happen my blog turned into one big ego boost. Somehow my mind started to translate X number of comments into value as a person. So it became dang near impossible for me to write anything without that motivation in the back of my head. "Will people think this is funny?" "Will they think I’m super-spiritual if I say this?" "Will the boy of my dreams read this and instantly fall in love with me?":)
So I decided that I was just going to quit the whole blogging deal. No more. Fineto.
But then I thought better of it. See I like telling stories…so I reckon I’ll keep on. However, in an effort to keep my fragile ego from getting out of hand I’ve decided to turn off the comments. Genius huh? I feel better just thinking about it. Will you like this post? Will you think I’m a crackpot? I’ll never know! And I like it that way.
So read and enjoy…or read and hate. I’ll keep on peddlin’ my lollipops just the same.
